"A sister is God's way of proving
he does not want us to walk alone'
Today my mind has been else where
My oldest sister Mary has been kind of
like the motherly patriarch in my family
as far as I can remember, she helped raise
me and was my parents second in command(that was
the way it was)
she has given her life to family,never married
my mind is with her today because she is
having a heart bypass tomorrow.
Heart conditions and Diabetes
run very deep in my family and Mary has
had diabetes forever so bad that it is now effecting
her eyesight at the age of 69 (next week)
I am close to her in some ways but
through the years I grew up and
am not that little girl she remembers
me to be.
I am an adult, my own person
but I love the gifts she gave me because
she helped mold and shape me as much
as my other siblings did.
Mary always felt she was the oldest
not the first born but she is the oldest
living, and she has always believed since
she was the oldest she should be the first
to pass, not the case my brother Joe was first
then My brother Peter,
As stated earlier, Mary has always been
the family care taker, she retired a few
years back and has been taking care of
my sister Linda's grandchildren.
I know there are things Mary may have
wished to do in her life but she gave of
herself unselfishly, with all her aches and
pains she still gives of herself unselfishly.
today she is going through more
tests and tomorrow the bypass
I feel so much anxiety because
I know in my heart she will be fine.
the procedure is a must she has put it
off for to long, but also I have been
down this road so many times
with my family, some heal well
and other's God called them home.
What ever God has planned for
Mary I hope it all goes well. I know
she is a strong person, because she
has endured so much in her life
thus far, She is strong in her
Catholic faith, that and family
is what has sustained her all
these years.
I spoke with her yesterday while on
her way to her diagnostic test
and was able to tell her
"I love her"
I know she knows that, but I
just had to tell her like all
of my other sister's we want
Mary to know that as our
Big Sister we will never let
her "walk alone"
"Real courage is when you know your licked
before you begin, but you begin anyway and you
see it through no matter what"
taken from to Kill a Mockingbird
well yesterday I took my first step and entered the college world
I had my first math class pre-algebra
I had a lot of home work for the 1st day
but what did I expect it was in fact the first
day!!
I was full of anxiety & stress
because I thought I would
be the oldest kid in class ( so I meditated a bit)
but to my dismay
I was not there are more class mates my age
and a little older in fact we are the majority!
the homework was hard but I think it was
basically just getting my mind back into
doing math mode and trying to learn
the new math, math that I did not have to take
when I was in high school or my early days of college
well I am going to try to muddle through this
almost through the week the class is only 3 days
a week for 5 weeks.
one week almost down 4 more to go
wish me luck!!!
truthfully it was not as bad as I
thought it would be.
Do not think of what you do not have
Instead~Appreciate what you have
and can still have
Do not think of things lost
Instead ~ value what you still
have and yet may find
Do not cry over spilled milk
Instead~ rejoice in what was left
Do not think of what you are not
Instead~ be humble with what you
are and can still become
Do not think of what others say
Instead~ concern yourself with
what you affirm to be
Do not think of the hours and days past
Instead~look eagerly to times that are
yet to come
Do not think of mistakes committed
Instead~ count the things you did right
Do not think much of the pain you have
caused
Instead~ plan for ways to make amends
Do not think of what you failed to do
Instead~ think of those that you were
able to do and can still best do
Do not think of the sufferings you now bear
Instead~ look to draw the comfort when
relief draws near
Do not consume yourself with thoughts
of what could have been
Instead~ marvel at what has become
and will become
Do not be anxious to attain greater happiness
Instead~ content yourself with the bliss
Do not aspire to fill your cup at once
Instead~ have the patience to do it
little by little and if by chance you
fail do not fret over the empty part
on top
Instead~celebrate the space filled up
Do not condemn nature when it is at
it's worst
Instead~think of times when it was at
it's best
Do not blame luck for things you miss
Instead~ learn from things in which
you have been remiss
nor should you curse luck or others
for life's misfortunes
Instead~ accept them as a part of life
I say then Live Fully, die a little,
learn much,but question less
have enough but give much more
be contented each time to crave much less
doubt less and affirm a lot
understand more and be
understood less
worry little but hope you must
accept all resist the least
for all things happen
in due time
they must
Yesterday, (since my daughter was camping
my husband Jeff and I and our son Kiel
pronounced (kyle) went to do one of our
favorite pass-times, going through Antique Shops.
we had a blast! Kiel is very musically inclined and
he loves to teach himself any kind of instrument
he also loves antiques so we ended up in one of
the many stores and Kiel came about a banjo
so we of course bought it for him. for being in the
early 1970's it was in great shape. we then went
to buy some extra strings and Kiel is now learning
to play ( he is pretty good already since he is an avid
guitar guy!) took Kiel home and Jeff and I headed
to San Jose for a concert with Keith Urban !
(if you ever have the opportunity to see
Keith Urban in concert I recommend that
you do)
The girl band the Wreckers played first
for about 30 min. then at 9:00 pm
Mr. Urban came out and played for
two hours straight.playing his old stuff
and new ( Jeff and I had
floor seats so it was a great view)
I was not sure that Jeff would like the concert
he just knew that Keith was the Australian country
singer,and married to Nicole Kidman by
the end of the night he was blown
away and hooked! we had such fun
so 6-15.07 will always be to me
Banjos and Keith Urban!!!
"life isn't measured by the
number of breaths we take
but by the moments that take
our breath away"
" All our dreams can come true if we have the courage to pursue them"
Walt Disney
I have always admired Walt Disney's work (Disneyland, Disney Movies, Books, Etc)
and found him to be a fascinating Man.
my friend Shanna's husband is the biggest Walt Disney fan I know.
Walt's words are Chris's philosophy in life and he has built a thriving
business of course he had a great deal of help from Shanna!
I love the above quote because I am about to embark on making one of my dreams
come true. At the age of 44. I am returning to college and earning my degree.
I have taken this path before but somehow sidetrack myself I have never finished.
This time I am bound to finish with out any sidetracks.
I am full of emotion, excited and scared at the same time, through my journey of
self discovery.I feel that this is the first step I must take and hopefully
it's the right time.
I begin this step Monday and only taking one class Pre Algebra, math has never
been my strong suit.
my two teenagers at home have graciously volunteered to
be my tutors and help me through ( hope they know what they have gotten themselves
into!!)
Am I CRAZY!! I wonder? for me this going back to school is to say that I accomplished that
in my life time.
"If You can dream it, You can do it"
Walt Disney
well I hope Mr. Disney is right.
Last night I had a dream about
" Alice through the looking glass"
I am not sure why this dream occurred
it is one of my favorite classic stories
and this is the part I cherish the most.
A boat beneath a sunny sky
lingering on ward dreamily
in an evening of July
Children three that nestle near
eager eye and willing ear
pleased a simple tale to hear
long has pulled that sunny sky
ecohs fade and memories die
Autum frosts have slain July
still she haunts me phantom wise
Alice moving under skies
never moving by waking eyes
children yet, the tale to hear
eager eye and willing ear
Lovingly shall nestle here
in a wonderland they lie
dreaming as the days go by
dreaming as the summers die
ever drifting down the stream
lingering in the golden gleam
LIFE what is it but a dream
Lewis Carroll
