concern

Yesterday my sister who
has the smile like a big sunflower
was taken by ambulance to the
ER after she had chest pain and
keeled over at her work which
ironically she is a medical assistant
so she was in the right place at the
right time. anyway she was kept
over night so that tests can be
run to see if she had a heart attack

to be honest it would not surprise me
if this was the case after-all Heart disease
and diabetes runs deep in my family and
then she has been under a deal of stress
and she has other health issues.

I will know more later today
and hope that it was not a heart
attack and that all will be well

funny

I love the character "Maxine" I get a kick
out of her whip wisdom.
lately, I can relate to this particular one
(not that I am making light of Global Warming,
I am not) but I can seriously relate to the Hot Flash
part. since I have been experiencing them for sometime
now. It is natural I realize I can't recall my mother ever
having hot flashes ( I am sure she did!) although there are
some lucky ladies that don't. anyway, I am one of the ones
that have the pleasure of having hot flashes!!!

if Global Warming is Mother Nature having a
Hot flash then ladies we are in serious need of something
to keep us cool!!!

like a tree

another one of my favorite Psalms
I have many of them but this one is how I
am feeling today.

Psalm 18:2

These words are hitting close to home for me today
for so many reasons. as many of you who read my blog
know that one of my aunt's was diagnosed with pancreatic
cancer. I finally had the chance to call her yesterday
and she sounded so tired and the tone of her voice
was like she is giving up the fight. ( I pray that she
is not and that God will give her the strength ) I tried to
stay positive and then I thought what right do I have to tell her
to keep up the fight if she does not want to? I have always
told myself and my immediate family that if I am ever
diagnosed (depending ) on what stage it is found I would
rather live what time I had on earth with my family then
to be sick with all the poison like chemo and not enjoy
each day of life with my family.

Then this morning I came across this poem in our
city newspaper

FOR TODAY

OH FOR THE GIFT OF LIVING
FOR TODAY

ENJOYING LIFE WITHOUT IT GETTING
IN THE WAY

TO SEE THE WONDERS THAT
EACH DAY PROVIDES

TO SHARE THE EMOTIONS WE
TOO OFTEN HIDE

TO SAY THE WORDS WE HESITATE TO STATE
TO RISK , TO LIVE IT'S NEVER TO LATE
TO GO AHEAD AND DO JUMP IN
INSTEAD OF WAITING FOR LIFE TO BEGIN

TO FULLY LIVE, NOT JUST BE LIVING
TO SHARE OUR LOVE TO BE FREE GIVING

LET US NOT FOR HESITATION LATER PAY
THE LESSON IS TO LIVE FOR TODAY

(WRITTEN BY DIANE INGRAM)

I pondered this poem all day and thought
of many things. this time of year is always
full of emotions sad and happy and always
melancholy at the same time

it is always remembering the two brothers
and grandfather my family lost, it is always
full of joy for the family birthdays that are this
month including me! it is being thankful for
the blessings I have in my life, past, present
and future.

I believe that my aunt will continue her fight and
give her the strength she needs. and even give
strength to her family.

after all the Lord is my Rock, my strength, and
it is him I trust.

Psalm 24:1-2

The Earth is the Lord's and everything in it, The World
and all who dwell in it, for he founded it upon the seas and
established it upon the waters.

Sometimes I wonder what the Lord thinks of
his creation of the world the way it is today
with all the craziness in it.

then I look at the mountains, or the ocean or look
at simple things and see the beauty in all that
the Lord created for a reason and the blessings
he bestows on us even if we must journey through
this craziness and sometimes stop believing.

weather we believe it or not he guides us every step of the way

there is a line from a Garth Brooks song I love
it goes like this

"Some of God's Greatest gifts are unanswered prayers""

cap & gown

This Past Tuesday we had to
place the order for our son's
cap & gown and announcements
for his up coming high- school graduation in the
spring.
we went through photos of him being
a toddler for his year book and
Later this week we will help
him apply for colleges

I have known this was coming
it is the next step in his life
then all of a sudden it hit me
my son, my little boy, my only boy
is grown up he will be 18 in a few months
and then graduate and start his journey

I could not get to sleep
I keep having thoughts racing
through my mind. thoughts
of, have I done a good job with
my son? did I and my husband
teach him everything he needs
to know about heading out on his
own?. I think we did, I hope we did.

I am sure we did. ( at least I think and pray so) I guess we will find
out.
this week in particular made me
very emotional because of all the thoughts
going through my mind and to see my son
kind of feeling the pressure of completing
scholarship applications and the college applications
and rehearsing for his school play at the end of the month

he is feeling the stress quite a bit and tonight he
kind of had a bit of a melt down( a natural thing) we
talked and I hugged him and comforted him like mom's do
for that brief bit he clung to me like he was two years old
and wanted mom to make the boo boo better. again I think
I did, I hope I did.

I know in the next few months he will still be a bit stressed
and then he will be alright but one thing he knows is I am
here for him always no matter how old he is to give him a hug
and try to make the boo-boo feel better.

psalms

just one of my many favorite prayers.