Thinking of Granny

Today would have been my husband's "granny's" 93 rd birthday so we are honoring her spirit. she was a pure country gal at heart and taught me many things. it always amazed me how women from her age were excellent cooks in that they did not measure anything! she enjoyed teaching me old family recipes so tonight we will indulge in a few of her favorites.  I really clicked with her as she and my mother were only a week apart in age. we lost our beloved granny two years ago. Granny loved all kinds of plants and wildflowers, this photo was taken on a hike and I immediately felt Granny's spirit as the wind began to blow. today we will also plant some wildflower seeds and hope they take flight. I am sure that they will with Granny's spirit guiding us.

Tomorrow

Tomorrow marks my mother's 93rd birthday, I really miss her perils of wisdom and I carry her in my heart everyday. Tomorrow one of my sister's and our eldest niece will be hiking the 5 mile hike of the "Path of the Padres" I did this a few years ago and was completely out of shape hopefully I am in much better shape. My mother was a devout catholic so taking this hike on this day seems fitting. there is also another tradition that I will be doing in honor of my mother which is when I was a young girl my mother would take me on her birthday to get a "shamrock shake" (she loved those) so every year my husband, daughter, son and I get a shamrock shake. or if we are unable to we make our own. I look forward to tomorrow has I know I will be feeling my mother's spirit beside me.

The Times They Are A Changing

For some reason I have had this old Bob Dylan song stuck in my head! not sure if it is cause I have been going through some changes or it's a sign of changes to come well whatever the reason here is an oldie!

Gather 'round peopleWherever you roamAnd admit that the watersAround you have grown
And accept it that soonYou'll be drenched to the boneIf your time to youIs worth savin'
Then you better start swimmin'Or you'll sink like a stoneFor the times they are a-changin'
Come writers and criticsWho prophesize with your penKeep your eyes wideThe chance won't come again
Don't speak too soonFor the wheel's still in spinAnd there's no tellin' whoThat it's namin'
For the loser nowWill be later to winFor the times they, they are a-changin'
Come senators, CongressmenPlease heed the callDon't block at the doorwayDon't block up the hall
For he that gets hurtWill be he who has stalledThere's a battle outsideAnd it's ragin'
It'll soon shake your windowsAnd rattle your wallsFor the times they are a-changin'
Come mothers and fathersThroughout the landDon't criticizeWhat you can't understand
Your sons and your daughtersAre beyond your commandYour old road isRapidly agin'
Please get out of the new oneIf you can't lend a handFor your times they are a-changin'
The line it is drawnAnd the curse it is castThe slow one nowWill later be fast
As the present nowWill later be pastThe order isRapidly fadin'
And the first one nowWill later be lastFor the times they are a-changin 

sublime

" The sublime vision comes to the pure and simple soul in a clean and chaste body" 

                                                                                                             Ralph Waldo Emerson

Dreams

"Dreams are illustrations for the book your soul is writing about you "

                         I came across this quote and it really gave me something to ponder about for the last few years I have been on a soul searching trek re-discovering who I am, what makes me click, and along the way I have come to understand quite a bit some I enjoy what I saw about myself even liked about myself and others I have found what I needed to let go of physically and emotionally not an easy task but one that I can be content happy and comfortable living with.

I also came to the realization that my quest about me will always be a work in progress of some sorts because I hope to always be evolving but evolving in the sense that I keep my wits about me, I keep in-tune with my inner self and keep in tune with my relationships so that they grow and flourish in a positive light.

I turned the big 50 this last year and as I have always gone by " I am not a year older ( though my mind and body age) I am a year wiser" I love those words a year wiser, it is true you lose some things as you age but you also gain things as you age, I embraced turning 50 in a quite way, I may look 50 but I don't feel it, sure I have ailments I am taking care of those but I am embracing those ailments to live a healthy life as best as I can some ailments I hope will go way the ones that won't then I pray that we can live peacefully in my body and enjoy life.

Dreams for myself that I have had well in reflection most of them have come true, I am married to my soul-mate of almost thirty years I felt this when we first met and I still feel it today not saying that in these almost thirty years that its been easy cause of course it has not but the fact is that we love each other enough to know that our choice to accept and love each other is what is of importance to us, through good and bad, and now we enter stepping into a world of aging together, it has brought a different vitality to our lives and with new dreams to make come true.

I have two wonderful adult children who have a big heart and a loving spirit ( I am blessed) and I take my parenting very seriously because there was a time in my heart and life that I did not believe I would ever be a mother, then through the grace of the lord I was blessed with a son and daughter, who are open and honest one already through college and the other almost there( well, OK, has a little ways since she is becoming a Dr.) I am very proud of them.

so now I live each day continue to dream illustrations for the book my soul is writing about me I am curious as to what it will it say, I can't wait to read it. Do you ever wonder what your dreams will illustrate in the book your soul is writing about you?

zen thought #1

 I am sure I have published this quote before but I love my zen quotes and wanted to publish this again

                      "Nature does not hurry yet everything is accomplished"

A Work in Progress

Two years ago for a New Year's resolution I decided that I was going to go by one of my favorite quotes by Dolly Parton and "Find out who you are and do it on purpose" This quote as rung with me for many many years,
I have been soul searching and finding out just who I am inwards and outwards and even though I am still searching ( will always) and have come to many realizations about myself I am what I am comfortable saying
"A WORK IN PROGRESS"  I came to the conclusion that this is not a bad place to be because I am an ever changing person learning about me and that it is ok!

I have the permanent labels I am ..... Jeff's wife, soul-mate, lover, best friend, Partner
                                          I am ....  Kiel and Kaitlyn's mother, adviser,confidant, safe place
                                          I am ...    A Daughter
                                          I am .....  A  Sister, Aunt, Great Aunt,Niece, Cousin
                                          I am ....   A Student, A Administrative Assistant
                                          I am ...    A Friend,
                                          I am...     A Believer
                                   

I  enjoy being a work in progress because there are still so many more facets for me to find of what makes me tick. and at age 49 I am enjoying this re-cleansing of me. I honestly feel so many different and fascinating emotions with this. In a few months I will be entering what everyone calls the big 50! club I am not afraid to do so I am looking forward to it I have always said this about my birthdays I do not think of myself as a year older cause that is a given I think of myself as a year wiser!  I actually think of myself as a flower that is blooming with the seasons.