courage

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure to embrace the new
but there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful, there is more security in the
adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life and in change there is power"

Andrew Cohen

Do You Live In Tomorrow

Do You Live in tomorrow when you must face today?
at times I forget to live in the moment but what do I miss?
the setting of the sun, sound of birds singing and most importantly
I miss meeting myself,I am constantly changing and if I don't spend
time with myself in the here and now I will never get to appreciate
Who I Truly Am, because I am to busy focusing on who I want to be

Gary Barnes

moment

Funny how in a moment your life experiences many changes, when I was 16 years old I lost my father he passed away from a heart attack at the good old age of 82, granted he was up in his age and so it would be natural for this to occur but at 16 you don't really understand that. from that moment my life would change. I was not close to my father because of his age I imagine, but looking back at photos and the memories I can recall I appreciate what time I did have with him. in the moment of his death I found myself on a searching path, searching for what I did not know, I managed to keep my feelings inside and just muddle through life, then years later I found myself in that moment again when I was married( another blog!) and I had to travel back to Ca from Hawaii ( my husband was in military at time) for the death of my Mother and of course that brought up those old wounded moment memories of my Father's passing, difference is a Mother is the core of the whole family unit and to lose that shakes you. I have to say since my parents have been gone my family as different as we are have managed to still be a family, though we go on with our lives we manage to be there for each other when the moment arises.
through the years I had to experience those old moments again when I lost my two older brothers. I accept death is apart of life, and now I can say sometimes I still search for whatever
I am looking for I guess I will know when I have arrived and that to me will be one of many great moments.

the first inspiration

Websters dictionary defines Inspiration as such
(a) Divine Influence seen as the working Holy Spirit in the human soul.
(b) The creative impulse of an artist, often seen as a super natural prompting
(c) A person who or things that inspires
(d) an inspired idea

and it also defines the word Inspire as such
(a) to move by divine influence
(b) to fill with creative power
(c) to stimulate, to inspire confidence

When I look back at my childhood I feel that the person who taught me about inspiration would have to be my mother, she has been deceased for 21 years and some how thoughts of her and what she taught me (many things lot's of blogs to come) still inspire me. where does inspiration come from all sorts of places for most of my life as stated earlier it came from my mom and now it comes from my immediate family husband, kids, and with in the whole family realm sisters, brothers, nephews, nieces etc. I feel very lucky to have been inspired by my mother for it was watching her inspiration of raising a family, un-selfishly as mothers do that some how gave me the courage to be inspired to raise my teenagers! and I still search for inspiration in my children and daily life and feel my mom's inspiration guide me.