waiting

I just returned from our holiday with family in Az
only to get a call while I was there that My Aunt had
taken a turn for the worst and was taken back to her house
and waiting to start her journey to Heaven.

upon my return I was blessed to have gone to see her
before her journey begins. we all have known this
day was coming and is coming sooner than we liked. we
hoped for a miracle but I think the miracle is that she is not
in any pain and is at peace and is ready to start her
journey. I spent a good few hours with my cousins and my aunt
just talking she would open her eyes now and then, I sat and noticed
how much she looked like her mother. I have never been one who
was good at accepting death, I was always taught it was a part of life
which is true but it always kind of seemed to me to be kind of a harsh
reality especially when it is the loss of someone you love, there is no answer
it is something that happens.

but tonight as I sat with my cousins and we talked and watched my aunt
I realized something my aunt taught me there can be a peacefulness to dying
she is weak, she is waiting to go home to Heaven.
we are not sure how long we will have her she could pass at any moment
but I have felt blessed tonight to be able to tell her I love her.

Abundance

Yesterday I spent a few hours
picking a bunch of tangerines from
our tree in our backyard, funny while
I was picking tangerines my husband
was picking oranges off the tree on the
other end. as I was sorting them I ended up with 5 bags !
and there is still a great deal
of abundance of tangerines on the tree
that will need to be picked.

so while I was looking at the trees I just
thought what a beautiful color and what
an abundance this tree fruited and produced.

and then I began to think about this week
being thanksgiving and last night I kept
pondering all this as I was looking at all the
tangerines and I reflected it to my life.

I am blessed in abundance for my husband & best friend
of 25 years, for my children, my husband's family, my sisters, & brother,
my nephews, nieces.(for the reconnection with two of them that I hope will always continue)
to my niece and nephew I am beginning to know. for the new family members that married or
that were born into the family this year. for the memories of those that have passed
for true friends, for the folks that read my blog! and don't think I am crazy!
and for myself that I will be turning 45 next week.

I feel profoundly and abundantly blessed
we are off to the desert to spend the Thanksgiving
holiday with my husband's family it gives us a chance
to spend time with them. but it also gives me the chance
to take a breath and recharge and ponder many things
in the stillness of the desert a time just to sit still.

note: those who know me and read this, that live near me
if you would like some tangerines let me know there is
plenty!

so I wish everyone who reads this a Happy Thanksgiving
and hope that you are all blessed with much abundance .

An Evening with Mr. Black

Last night I took my hubby out on a date
to celebrate our anniversary of knowing and
being each other's best friend for 25 years anniversary
which was on Nov 1st.

we started off by having dinner at joint we always wanted
to try in a town then we headed for
the special part of our date I bought him tickets to see
one of his favorite country singers

CLINT BLACK

back to the concert, we had such a great time
if any of you ever get the chance to see him and
like his music I highly recommend it.
he played for and hour and half straight
he is such a talented musician and song writer
he sang all is hits and few new ones.

he does a great impression of Willie Nelson!

he closed his encore by playing his version of the
great song DESPERADO which he recorded many
years ago.

we had such a wonderful time and my husband
enjoyed our date which was great because we
have both been under stress and have not
been able to take our mini road trips or as we
call them our breakaways, due to the upcoming
holidays. and we are hopefully going to be taking
a family one this summer to celebrate our 25th wedding
anniversary and our son graduating high school.

On our drive home we were talking and came to
the conclusion that out of our summer concert series this
year we enjoyed them all but for my hubby he enjoyed
two of them the most which was Clint Black and Keith Urban
for me it was Keith Urban,Clint Black and Brad Paisley.

oh, yes I did enjoy getting my photo with Taylor Swift(who some how
I saw three times this summer)
and seeing Tim McGraw and Faith Hill wasn't half bad
either!

update to last blog

My sister that I wrote about
yesterday was not Mary and

this sister is home now
her tests came back normal
but she will have to take a stress test
and some other tests in a few days

concern

Yesterday my sister who
has the smile like a big sunflower
was taken by ambulance to the
ER after she had chest pain and
keeled over at her work which
ironically she is a medical assistant
so she was in the right place at the
right time. anyway she was kept
over night so that tests can be
run to see if she had a heart attack

to be honest it would not surprise me
if this was the case after-all Heart disease
and diabetes runs deep in my family and
then she has been under a deal of stress
and she has other health issues.

I will know more later today
and hope that it was not a heart
attack and that all will be well

funny

I love the character "Maxine" I get a kick
out of her whip wisdom.
lately, I can relate to this particular one
(not that I am making light of Global Warming,
I am not) but I can seriously relate to the Hot Flash
part. since I have been experiencing them for sometime
now. It is natural I realize I can't recall my mother ever
having hot flashes ( I am sure she did!) although there are
some lucky ladies that don't. anyway, I am one of the ones
that have the pleasure of having hot flashes!!!

if Global Warming is Mother Nature having a
Hot flash then ladies we are in serious need of something
to keep us cool!!!

like a tree

another one of my favorite Psalms
I have many of them but this one is how I
am feeling today.