This Past Tuesday we had to
place the order for our son's
cap & gown and announcements
for his up coming high- school graduation in the
spring.
we went through photos of him being
a toddler for his year book and
Later this week we will help
him apply for colleges
I have known this was coming
it is the next step in his life
then all of a sudden it hit me
my son, my little boy, my only boy
is grown up he will be 18 in a few months
and then graduate and start his journey
I could not get to sleep
I keep having thoughts racing
through my mind. thoughts
of, have I done a good job with
my son? did I and my husband
teach him everything he needs
to know about heading out on his
own?. I think we did, I hope we did.
I am sure we did. ( at least I think and pray so) I guess we will find
out.
this week in particular made me
very emotional because of all the thoughts
going through my mind and to see my son
kind of feeling the pressure of completing
scholarship applications and the college applications
and rehearsing for his school play at the end of the month
he is feeling the stress quite a bit and tonight he
kind of had a bit of a melt down( a natural thing) we
talked and I hugged him and comforted him like mom's do
for that brief bit he clung to me like he was two years old
and wanted mom to make the boo boo better. again I think
I did, I hope I did.
I know in the next few months he will still be a bit stressed
and then he will be alright but one thing he knows is I am
here for him always no matter how old he is to give him a hug
and try to make the boo-boo feel better.
