Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Mary
"A sister is God's way of proving
he does not want us to walk alone'
Today my mind has been else where
My oldest sister Mary has been kind of
like the motherly patriarch in my family
as far as I can remember, she helped raise
me and was my parents second in command(that was
the way it was)
she has given her life to family,never married
my mind is with her today because she is
having a heart bypass tomorrow.
Heart conditions and Diabetes
run very deep in my family and Mary has
had diabetes forever so bad that it is now effecting
her eyesight at the age of 69 (next week)
I am close to her in some ways but
through the years I grew up and
am not that little girl she remembers
me to be.
I am an adult, my own person
but I love the gifts she gave me because
she helped mold and shape me as much
as my other siblings did.
Mary always felt she was the oldest
not the first born but she is the oldest
living, and she has always believed since
she was the oldest she should be the first
to pass, not the case my brother Joe was first
then My brother Peter,
As stated earlier, Mary has always been
the family care taker, she retired a few
years back and has been taking care of
my sister Linda's grandchildren.
I know there are things Mary may have
wished to do in her life but she gave of
herself unselfishly, with all her aches and
pains she still gives of herself unselfishly.
today she is going through more
tests and tomorrow the bypass
I feel so much anxiety because
I know in my heart she will be fine.
the procedure is a must she has put it
off for to long, but also I have been
down this road so many times
with my family, some heal well
and other's God called them home.
What ever God has planned for
Mary I hope it all goes well. I know
she is a strong person, because she
has endured so much in her life
thus far, She is strong in her
Catholic faith, that and family
is what has sustained her all
these years.
I spoke with her yesterday while on
her way to her diagnostic test
and was able to tell her
"I love her"
I know she knows that, but I
just had to tell her like all
of my other sister's we want
Mary to know that as our
Big Sister we will never let
her "walk alone"
class
"Real courage is when you know your licked
before you begin, but you begin anyway and you
see it through no matter what"
taken from to Kill a Mockingbird
well yesterday I took my first step and entered the college world
I had my first math class pre-algebra
I had a lot of home work for the 1st day
but what did I expect it was in fact the first
day!!
I was full of anxiety & stress
because I thought I would
be the oldest kid in class ( so I meditated a bit)
but to my dismay
I was not there are more class mates my age
and a little older in fact we are the majority!
the homework was hard but I think it was
basically just getting my mind back into
doing math mode and trying to learn
the new math, math that I did not have to take
when I was in high school or my early days of college
well I am going to try to muddle through this
almost through the week the class is only 3 days
a week for 5 weeks.
one week almost down 4 more to go
wish me luck!!!
truthfully it was not as bad as I
thought it would be.
before you begin, but you begin anyway and you
see it through no matter what"
taken from to Kill a Mockingbird
well yesterday I took my first step and entered the college world
I had my first math class pre-algebra
I had a lot of home work for the 1st day
but what did I expect it was in fact the first
day!!
I was full of anxiety & stress
because I thought I would
be the oldest kid in class ( so I meditated a bit)
but to my dismay
I was not there are more class mates my age
and a little older in fact we are the majority!
the homework was hard but I think it was
basically just getting my mind back into
doing math mode and trying to learn
the new math, math that I did not have to take
when I was in high school or my early days of college
well I am going to try to muddle through this
almost through the week the class is only 3 days
a week for 5 weeks.
one week almost down 4 more to go
wish me luck!!!
truthfully it was not as bad as I
thought it would be.
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