Choose

"We choose our joys and our sorrows long before we experience them" Kahlil Gibran

The Secret

"The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, not to worry about the future, nor to anticipate troubles, but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly " Buddha

To Know

great quote by Confucius:

" To know what you know and to know what you don't know that is real wisdom"

I have made the decision to return to college at my age of 48 I begin just one class in a few weeks, I have to admit I am a bit scared, nervous so fillled with many emotions I know this is something I feel I need and want I just hope I can keep up with it, It is a whole new world for me, I wonder if what I know from life experiences will help get through this. I have college age kids and well part of me has begun to wonder but I have my college kids blessings and support to do this along with my husbands so I will see where this path leads me.  I have been on a self discovery path since January and I have been learing a great deal about myself also in January I had some surgery that has given me great insight and well my paths are still a slow work in progress but like the old saying one step, at a time and that is what I am doing breathing, and decision making one step at a time. I have two more weeks of work before I have a month off for summer break so many things happening I have to remember to let stuff I have no control over just go and remind myself to breathe slowly everything will fall into place and if it doesnt then it will in another way. I think the above quote by Confucius is so true what you don't know is real wisdom.

when life throws you lemons

The old saying when life throws you lemons make lemonade! that is the lesson my 21 year old son has learned in the past week bless his heart. he is entering is last year at UC Santa Cruz and had arranged to live in a co-op community for college students however to his dismay he learned the co-op is going to shut down during the summer and so he will have to find outside housing due to it being late to apply for dorms . he wants to experience living off campus and was hoping to do that this summer however since the co-op fell apart also he learned that the job he had at the campus for the summer also fell through he is good to return for the fall. so he will be spending his summer at home and working at his old job but not before we take a little vacation he so needs a break. So he will be coming home tomorrow and I am so excited ! in our phone conversation the other day he has already made note to me of some things he hopes to do with just him and myself I so love that he loves spending quality time with me ! most 21 year olds would more than likely like spending time with their friends etc. but my son and I have always been close I am close with both my children and hope it will remain that way always and to their significant others they may bring into this family. anyway we will be doing the things he has requested I only have a few more weeks left of work then I am off for summer! tomorrow I will have one of his favorite dishes for dinner in honor of his return home for the summer.

Nineteen

Yesterday My daughter( my sunshine sunflower)  celebrated her nineteenth birthday. when she was little girl she liked the birthday parties as she got into her teens not so much a party person anymore she likes quaint celebrations with just the four of us ( which normally would mean me, her dad, her brother) and now her boyfriend of course. well her brother could not be here but called and they had a long chat her boyfriend ( my son in law to be one day ) Kevin brought her a dozen white roses and a bouquet of wild flowers, we gave her money as she likes to shop and our traditional out to dinner and cake she chose Chinese food and a Oreo cookie ice cream cake from Baskin Robbins. and she got a zillion and one birthday wishes from friends and family on face book and some by text all in all she had a wonderful day. and to end her day she and I watched a few episodes of Gilmore Girls ( that was one of our favorite mom and daughter shows) so from time to time we kind of have a Gilmore Girls marathon, we also indulge in Taylor Swift music. I am so glad she had a great day reason being she is planning on spreading her wings and flying at the end of Dec and transfer to a college out of state. part of me says she is not ready  but the other part of me says I understand I myself had left home and met her father at nineteen but did not get married till I was twenty. I am trying to see all the good and be supportive even though I will miss her terribly but I am hoping that where ever her dad and I land our feet she will live near by same with our son. ( I know it may be a lot to wish for but I am going to keep wishing it) time sure does pass by in a blink of an eye. so I am plan on having mother and daughter days as much as we can before she moves and I told her that I will be celebrating next years birthday with her in her new state because as long as I can help it we will continue tradition and have birthday dinners and cake together.