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My eldest light of my life celebrated
his 18th birthday this past Thursday. I am feeling melancholy . this was how we celebrated his first birthday.

as I look back at this photo I am reminded of how
very blessed I am to have given birth to him
I had very serious trouble getting pregnant, I battled
through many Hormone shots, medications that
(have put me at very high risk for uterine cancer)
and none of these worked. after trying so long and so hard I gave up, my husband and I went on vacation
and well the miracle happened I came home
and found out I was expecting and
even more special when I found out we were going to have a son!
I am feeling so many emotions hard to explain them all. no matter how old he is, he will always be my baby boy ( I have a special nick name but won't embarrass him by revealing it!) my child is grown up ( even though he has always been mature for his age)
He had a quiet birthday just a few friends over and pizza then when the friends left the four of
us did the cake thing with the number 18 candles, we took photos and then he blew out his candles and made his wish.

Friday he brought home is cap and gown and his announcements for his up coming high school
graduation. ( the time is coming sooner than I like it to!)

Saturday we were on a shopping mission to find the perfect suit for his up coming prom which is this coming weekend. we went to several stores before we finally found the perfect one!
then we headed to the craft store to find the perfect shades of silk flowers to make a wrist
corsage for his date.

This morning he informed me that today he was going to be part of the Every 15 minutes
all in his make up of scars etc. showing the kids not to drink and drive.

I am filled with so much emotion that I have not quite found how to express it or put it in
perspective to write it in words , I know when I figure it out I will be able to write about it
until then
I am now the Mom of an Adult!