Alice in wonderland

Last night I got to be taken to
a kind of dark place in watching the
high school production of Alice in wonderland
my son was the Cheshire Cat he did a wonderful
job with a small part. the whole cast and crew did
a great job.

This was not the Alice from the Walt Disney movie
the kids in the play made it their own with some
humor and song, and set, but yet still on the dark side
some scenes kind of creepy like but not devilish.

I am always amazed to see such talent these high
school kids have and I am glad that my son is
apart of it and that the performing arts can
still be apart of the school system.

I don't know if my son will perform in the spring
play I hope he does.

The Birthday

The last week of November
I had a birthday I really did not
celebrate it like I would normally
have done due to the passing of my aunt
but my daughter baked me a cake and so
I celebrated a little. and my family called and
gave me birthday greetings which made the
day not so sad.

we decided that after the holidays we
will do our family birthday ritual that we
always do and go out to dinner somewhere
of my choosing.

bless my children's heart for the thought.

Gone Home

it has been a week since my last entry
a week of sadness and of fond memories
a week of seeing family you only get to see
when someone you love leaves this earth.


Last week my aunt left this earth and went home
to heaven. I am so blessed to have spent the time
I did to tell her goodbye and I loved her I will always
treasure that gift.

one of my loved ones was asked to do the eulogy and
she did a remarkable job. after that I visited with realitives
I have not seen in a while and we had a good visit
under the circumstances.
I know my aunt would have loved it.

for the last two days I have had this thought going through
my head when my time comes to pass I wonder if I would be
so Adorn by my nieces, nephews, cousins, etc I hope that I will be
that somewhere along my life time I gave some sage advice or
gave them some special memory of me to make a lasting memory.

well I carry my aunt in my heart with a few special memories
of visits we had together from me being a little girl and into the
very last days of her life. she will be truly missed.

Welcome to My Morning

Welcome to my morning
Welcome to my day
I'm the one responsible
I made it just this way
To make myself some pictures
See what they might bring
I think I made it perfectly
I wouldn't change a thing

Welcome to my happiness
You know it makes me smile
And it pleases me to have you here
For just a little while
While we open up the spaces
Try to break some chains
And if the truth is told
They will never come again

Welcome to my evening
The closing of the day
I could try a million times
Never find a better way
To tell you that I love you
And all the songs I play
Are to thank you for allowing me
Inside this lovely day

Welcome to my morning
Welcome to my day
I'm the one responsible
I made it just this way
To make myself some pictures
And see what they might bring
I think I made it perfectly
I wouldn't change a thing



just another one of my favorite John Denver
songs.

waiting

I just returned from our holiday with family in Az
only to get a call while I was there that My Aunt had
taken a turn for the worst and was taken back to her house
and waiting to start her journey to Heaven.

upon my return I was blessed to have gone to see her
before her journey begins. we all have known this
day was coming and is coming sooner than we liked. we
hoped for a miracle but I think the miracle is that she is not
in any pain and is at peace and is ready to start her
journey. I spent a good few hours with my cousins and my aunt
just talking she would open her eyes now and then, I sat and noticed
how much she looked like her mother. I have never been one who
was good at accepting death, I was always taught it was a part of life
which is true but it always kind of seemed to me to be kind of a harsh
reality especially when it is the loss of someone you love, there is no answer
it is something that happens.

but tonight as I sat with my cousins and we talked and watched my aunt
I realized something my aunt taught me there can be a peacefulness to dying
she is weak, she is waiting to go home to Heaven.
we are not sure how long we will have her she could pass at any moment
but I have felt blessed tonight to be able to tell her I love her.

Abundance

Yesterday I spent a few hours
picking a bunch of tangerines from
our tree in our backyard, funny while
I was picking tangerines my husband
was picking oranges off the tree on the
other end. as I was sorting them I ended up with 5 bags !
and there is still a great deal
of abundance of tangerines on the tree
that will need to be picked.

so while I was looking at the trees I just
thought what a beautiful color and what
an abundance this tree fruited and produced.

and then I began to think about this week
being thanksgiving and last night I kept
pondering all this as I was looking at all the
tangerines and I reflected it to my life.

I am blessed in abundance for my husband & best friend
of 25 years, for my children, my husband's family, my sisters, & brother,
my nephews, nieces.(for the reconnection with two of them that I hope will always continue)
to my niece and nephew I am beginning to know. for the new family members that married or
that were born into the family this year. for the memories of those that have passed
for true friends, for the folks that read my blog! and don't think I am crazy!
and for myself that I will be turning 45 next week.

I feel profoundly and abundantly blessed
we are off to the desert to spend the Thanksgiving
holiday with my husband's family it gives us a chance
to spend time with them. but it also gives me the chance
to take a breath and recharge and ponder many things
in the stillness of the desert a time just to sit still.

note: those who know me and read this, that live near me
if you would like some tangerines let me know there is
plenty!

so I wish everyone who reads this a Happy Thanksgiving
and hope that you are all blessed with much abundance .

An Evening with Mr. Black

Last night I took my hubby out on a date
to celebrate our anniversary of knowing and
being each other's best friend for 25 years anniversary
which was on Nov 1st.

we started off by having dinner at joint we always wanted
to try in a town then we headed for
the special part of our date I bought him tickets to see
one of his favorite country singers

CLINT BLACK

back to the concert, we had such a great time
if any of you ever get the chance to see him and
like his music I highly recommend it.
he played for and hour and half straight
he is such a talented musician and song writer
he sang all is hits and few new ones.

he does a great impression of Willie Nelson!

he closed his encore by playing his version of the
great song DESPERADO which he recorded many
years ago.

we had such a wonderful time and my husband
enjoyed our date which was great because we
have both been under stress and have not
been able to take our mini road trips or as we
call them our breakaways, due to the upcoming
holidays. and we are hopefully going to be taking
a family one this summer to celebrate our 25th wedding
anniversary and our son graduating high school.

On our drive home we were talking and came to
the conclusion that out of our summer concert series this
year we enjoyed them all but for my hubby he enjoyed
two of them the most which was Clint Black and Keith Urban
for me it was Keith Urban,Clint Black and Brad Paisley.

oh, yes I did enjoy getting my photo with Taylor Swift(who some how
I saw three times this summer)
and seeing Tim McGraw and Faith Hill wasn't half bad
either!